Being Single...

What does Single feel like?

                Single feels like…

being alone

loss

standing on your own

one against a million

sadness

pain

fear    

Comfort    

Single feels like…

Freedom

Selfishness

self-love

time

100% effort

Comfort

I have NO idea how I feel-- I am LOST.  

I want a boyfriend.  I don't want a boyfriend.  

I want a husband.  I don't want a husband.

I want to settle down.  I want to be as wild as I can be.

I want to stay in.  I want to go out.

I want to have kids.  I want to be single.

I have no idea what I want.  I always thought I knew, but I guess I didn't.  I knew what I wanted with a certain someone, but I am not sure if I will want that with everyone.

Will I find another person I want that with????

I won't lie... being single initially can feel like HELL.

If you have ever been through a break up, you know how I feel.

At first... you can't eat, you can't sleep, \you can't have fun, you can't be yourself, you can't FUNCTION...

Besides "losing someone" (to death), there is nothing else that hurts worse than a break up.

When I broke up with my boyfriend, I was completely in denial.  I believed that it was temporary and we would be together within a month.  After 2 weeks, I knew this time was different.   I knew I was alone from here on out.

When you first realize you are alone in this world, it's a scary, scary thought.  The truth is, you aren't.  You have friends and family who will support you no matter what and you are NEVER alone.  You have lost your best friend, that is true, but you have NOT lost yourself.

You may think that someone else is the one person you can NEVER, ever lose....

The truth is... You can only ever count on yourself.

Others can hurt you,

leave you,

betray you.

You can only count on yourself.  If you believe in a higher power, count on Him or Her.  I choose to believe in Him and put my faith in Him and I hope he leads me through.

Because I am weak.

I am sad.

I am lonely.

I am nostalgic.

I put my faith in myself, my family, my friends and my God.

You can choose who you put your faith in.

No matter what, Believe in YOURSELF.