Happiness

My life really is going the way it is meant to go.

I have realized that lately.  I am finding joy in things I never thought I could find joy in and I have began so many new hobbies that my time is constantly filled with positive things.

As I previously mentioned, I have started running and really found peace in my runs.  I always run at the track, I like not having to think about what I am doing such as looking out for cars, dogs, other runners, etc.  At the track I can literally zone out and just GO. And keep going. And going.    I can also keep track of my distance easily and when running with my friends, we can go at different paces but be within eye distance of one another.  It has really brought my friends and I closer as well.  I hope to run with Jordin or Naomi (or both!) in a race early next year.

Yesterday, for the first time, I tried out the Guitar.  My dad plays guitar and I have always wanted to.  I have heard it is so extremely hard, but hey—If I get decent at playing, that makes it that much more of a bragging right J.  My dad gave me his older acoustic guitar and I already feel so attached to it… It’s almost funny.  I went on YouTube and learned a couple keys and about the strings and how the instrument works.  I am really looking forward to learning to play.  My dad is going to teach me, and hopefully my friend Katie will be learning with me! Can’t Wait J.

With all these new activities, I still have the time to see my friends daily.  I have some close friends who I never see, some I hardly see and some I always see.  It doesn’t make me love them any less, but I have found some things interesting.

I have changed a lot.  I went from someone who doesn’t do ANYTHING besides work and school to someone who is involved in many aspects of life now—music, athletics, new friendships, etc.  I don’t think that my older friends are jealous of my new life, I just think they don’t understand it.  In some ways, they are supportive and in some ways, I feel like they just have to include a negative comment whenever I mention the new areas in my life that I am embracing.

I don’t expect a high-five or a hug, but I expect that I can be proud of the changes in my life without being ridiculed.  Honestly though, I feel so positive in my life that negativity bounces right off me.

I have never in my life felt so unaware of other’s opinions. 

Or maybe its not that I’m unaware… I just don’t care.